I am broken, unworthy
not good enough
this i do not deny
the more I see of myself
the more I hurt
and wrench to look away
my own misery a
sad shell
for this twisted
child
barely human
contorted skin
of flesh
And I can’t do it
I can’t heal
I stand on pride
this little crumb of worth
that crumbles beneath me
I’m not good enough
I never have been
and there is no way
I ever will be
I don’t know why you chose me
and even that security
is tentative
because you have no reason
to hold
anytime you could
leave
and you would be perfectly justified
And I feel alone and barren
You say you will not leave
but I am scared to trust
I would leave
if I were You
and the more I see of myself
through your eyes
how incapable
how imperfect
how unworthy
the more I cower in fear
and shame
I cannot make you love me
you push me to the breaking point
and over
to prove to me what I cannot
do
how much I cannot earn
do not deserve
and I shake in terror

I love you, honest I do
but even that is not pure
not whole
not good enough
meaningless
without You

I need You
I totally don’t deserve You or understand You
or have any claim to You
but You offer yourself and I need You
This worthless child
you have made worthy
depravity You take for holiness
and I need You!
Please come, Lord Jesus