tears fall, shudder,
        attempt escape
    within my heart
breaking me in a way that cannot mend
tears fall, shudder,
        attempt escape
        within my heart
for what I cannot do
    and cannot give

hand that trembles
    at what I cannot touch
lips at what I
    cannot say
break the tears
    from their place of hiding
    pour them forth
        in this simple
        touch of pen
            ...touch of pen
        i'd heal you if i could

seperate

Duty and passion
  do they have to be
    so far apart
  so tenuous a glimpse
    trembling
  of the one
firm grasp
    of the other
  first covenant
    commitment
      made
  before this day
    must they be ever seperate?

Driven

So driven
   everyone else
      falls on the
   shoal
      of your
   "plans"
So driven
   if we don't fit
      in with your
   goals
      or your
   "plans"
We're out

Where do you
   hold your friendships
Where do you
   set your goals, your
      "plans"
And where does God fit in?

what happened to
      love your neighbor
   -- love your brother
      love your sis --
We miss you
   taking backseat to your
      "plans"

the cry

I hate the person I am right now
the person I am when I’m tired
I hate the way I forget people
am selfish
in denial
and I need to learn to say hi

such a simple thing
just tell him hi
but I’m too incoherent
even to think it
and now it’s too late…
  please give me another
    chance

The only thing about Kansas
is that there is no water
no lake
no pond
no flowing streams
through trees
I could live almost
anywhere
And I could love Kansas
except that there is
no water

Jealousy

Jealousy
  eyes the color of his shirt
  jealous eyes
  watch him with her
I want this to be over
I don’t want to feel this anymore
I want this to be over
  he has far too much
   influence
  on my life
Take him

What child is this
Why You should
   come I do not know
      understand
i would not have come
   would not have
      loved
   as you did

Where is my focus?
It's off You again
You are my commitment
I want You to be my
Lover
Why are my eyes
wandering again
You are my beautiful face
beautiful soul
Return to my dreams
and haunt me again
Let your pursuit of me
be bold
and relentless
Call me from this whore's life
I hide in so uneasily
Taking less-wild lovers
poor substitutes
for your
all-consuming passion
Paying me for a night...
or am I the one who pays
by the rape pf all things
dear to me?
Why do I run?!
I know You!
I know your face
I know your love...
yet I let go
I sneak from our bed
to the arms of another
and weep
at the loss of all I have truly known

This whole jumble of emotions
All so new
...so lonely at times
and unexplained