I want my life to smell like
  pumpkin spice and burning leaves
  strawberries in the rain
I want my life to look like
  fireflies in the night
  the light of a thousand stars
  a single candle burning
    to touch a hundred others
  before the burn dies down
    eternal flame to be relit
  by the heat of the Son
    Carry me

I’m sorry God
so sorry
I tried again
on my own
but I wasn’t good enough
I claimed You
but didn’t mean it
my self-reliant will
so independent
tried to do it on my own

Take my heart again God
i fall broken and exhausted before You
You made me for yourself
and I fall on your mercy
please take me back
to your heart again
and let me be a ministry

i want…