You sit and look so tired
run your hands through your hair
and think a thousand thoughts
shuttered from the world
what haunts you my friend?
what keeps you up at nights?
keeps your smile from the day?
I pray for you my brother
     pray your restoration be complete

This cannot be a requiem mass
     for I am not gone yet
Though it feels my soul lies lost
'Tis buried 'neath the wandering stars
     and it has not come yet
To the health of one who lives

I miss what I have dreamed you to be
I miss the one I never knew
mourn that I could not understand
still cannot change
I mourn the loss
Was this your “fault”? cast blame. cast
it back upon myself

So quiet the voices come
whisper
my cry becomes a
whimper
barely breathing they come
taunting
ravish my soul
haunting
Alone the memories come
failing
to curb the weakness
fainting
Again I ask please no, please
don’t come
again my strength
won’t come

softness
falls in the hole of raging fire
falls in my heart
fills this desire
comes to my side
to take the place
of all twas lost
or never known
the voices come
stop.
no more the hole of fire

The lonliness comes in the still dark night
   and my heart shatters a thousand days
      I cannot learn to love halfway

The aching comes, brings with it loss
   of that which I cannot express
      have never held

The lonliness comes...

take these words
I take these words, pour out my soul
   I do not want you
      I lie
I ache for you, force myself inside
I want too much what I cannot have
      I hide
   how much I want you
I take these words, pour out my soul

afraid?
You are hiding as much as I
   You are scared as I am
though I don't know why
   are you afraid of me
      or am I...

You hide
    I wish that I
could make you smile
    could make you safe
once more

I don't want to hurt you
  my fear is that
I will lose you
  another friendship broken

How could you
  want me
How could you
  desire
    more?

So many fears enwrap
    my heart and I
don't want to hurt
    you, I want to be your friend

You see it as I do
    maybe more
you see all that goes on
    under the surface
and it hurts
  you
You feel as my sister does
    painful core
of hurt and wrath and loss
    bitterness and wrong
and it hurts you
You absorb all around you
    slamming door
hateful yells and glaring
    words unspoken
but no less
  said
you see but do not search it
    look but see
not

Take this heart
and let me know You
Take this life
and let me show You
Take this past
and make it new
Take this pride
and make it fall
Take this child
and make me seek You
Take this love
and make it pure

So easily distracted
mind poisoned within
tempted without
Be Thou only
within my sight

I will ravage you
I will take your heart
Your very soul
Your life to come back to Me
I will scar you
blind you
bring you
to your knees
to bring you back to Me
My Heart, my ravage
ravages me too
and I rend my heart
with your pain
for your pain
for your heart
for your love
I will not surrender
I will have my way
I will have you

I love you too much
to let you walk away
You do not know the fire into which
you walk

Do not turn away from Me
Do not walk away
Do not seek my
love
in another’s arms
another’s face
voice
charms
charm is seductive
and beauty is fleeting
Do not seek Me
in another
You will seek Me and find Me
I will be found
when you seek Me
with all your heart

I see your heart
written all over your face
your glance
your body
all speak to pain
the tenseness
and the
definition
of your
hesitation
both give away your
pain

you ask, a quiet voice,
that hides the depth
the truth
of what you feel
your plea fall on deaf ears
for peace

meet my motive
meet this heart
of purity and
sorrow as i
walk away from You
impure
it drags me
or do i run
unseeing
knowing where
i go
back again
so i cry
turn
come to You

silence echoes
impetuous sprite
it dances
in my head
as i lay on my back
tired and sore
and taken
by the flu
or whatever this is
yet a sprite dances
on tip-toe
in my head

The raindrops
tepid
a night of
new beginnings
the soft breeze
a spring of hope and
happiness
as soft it blows
round my face
bringing with it
the first wisps of
apple blossom
and echoes of children

Who are you
and why do I wait
so passionately
for you

why do I wait at all
Should I not care?
Who are you?!
Out of my head
this face from the
past

So we are friends
    my brother
  playmate
So we are friends
   do now we stay?
So we are friends
    in this I
  trust you…
So we are friends
   in this we stay?